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Thursday, April 22, 2010

no idea whats happening to my emotions lately.
irregular basis
so much so that i might even doubt myself
so badly.
i wasn't even sure if i am alright.
but i just knew ..
things aren't going well.
i laughed this moment but cried bitterly the next.
right now,
there's only God for me to speak to.
i should at least felt blessed.
at the least, i am not alone.
He felt my happiness, felt my joy
also,
He knew my pain, knew my hurt.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

11:02 PM
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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

come to the Father
though Your gift is small
broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so You would come.

for God so love the world
He gave His one and only son
that whoever believes in Him
shall not perish
and have eternal life
(John 3:16)

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

11:58 PM
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Friday, April 2, 2010

So badly.I miss you.

Good Friday to all
the first year i am looking forward to.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

11:00 AM
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Thursday, March 25, 2010

untuk i telah membuat salah langkah pertama, langkah yang membuatku regretted.
But saya akan memilih untuk melanjutkan dengan langkah yang salah ini,
Cause i love you dan i miss you so much.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

5:09 PM
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010

in my quiet time.
i screamed over it.
i cried bitterly over it.
i threw things over it.
And i got so temperamental over it.
its been more than 5 months, Ago
just when i thought i had finally been able to let go,
to move on,
my mind got filled up, Again.
that feeling was so so awful,
so much so that i feel like ..
i feel like ..
that i couldn't get any word to fill that in.
just that i feel like ending this sh** life of mine
in order to stop this sh** awful feeling in me.

couldn't imagine i am actually pretending to be living so well
so happy
where the actual fact is, i am terribly not, not at all.
no one for me to grumble my pains to.
no one for me to laugh and gossip with.
no one bothers to even lend a listening ear now.
where are all of them when i needed them the most??
where are all of them when i felt the most lousy and miserable ...
perhaps, maybe,
i am the one who people hate the most
the one who people got disgusted with.
the one who people can't wait to shun off with her presence.
the one, who deserve to be punish
for being the most awful human on earth.
perhaps, maybe,
she just meant to be left all alone.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

5:34 PM
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i felt so alone.
again.
And
i am scared.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

12:32 AM
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Monday, March 15, 2010

again, let the pictures do those talking.
these speaks those feelings i been facing.
Total mixture.
but oh well, perhaps not yet for the hearty eyes one yet. :X

but today,

motivation level decreasing.
and losing strength in hanging on once again.
:C

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

11:48 PM
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Saturday, March 13, 2010

it was bout 8 years old when i had my last meal there.
14years since!
and i am back at that place where we grew up !!
dinner date with, whom we also call them 'mummy' & 'daddy' (:
and 'mummy' specially cooked what we used to love to eat when we were both kids!
How awesome that feeling could be!
rewind of childhood memories
recap of taste-bud! :D
the happiest day, finally!
Thanks 'mummy' 'daddy' !! :D
♥

Thank God for making all these possible.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

10:57 PM
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Thursday, March 11, 2010

the single step i must learn to take.

"in the day when i cried out,
You answered me, and made me bold
with strength in my soul."
Psalm 138:3

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

11:09 AM
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010

happy birthday to him
Hope he is doing good now.
May God bless him.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

12:00 AM
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Tuesday, March 9, 2010

so naive to think that
whoever i am nice to
will do the same to me.
well, i guess the best word for now
STUPID.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

1:51 PM
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Sunday, March 7, 2010

beneath those pains and unhappiness.
Thank God
there are events that actually melts my heart
and giving me the strengths to carry on.

random pictures that speak a thousand words.

A SPECIAL BIG THANKS TO MY 4 BABES
FOR THE REALLY AMAZING BELATED BIRTHDAY SURPRISE !
MILLIONS LOVE TO MY AWESOME CLIQUE ! ♥♥

So afraid
that one day,
He, will leave me alone.
will give up on me.
in this life,
the path i took,
there bound to be lots of regrets,
lots of pain.
or there might even be times i chose the wrong path,
chose the wrong direction.
Lord, please don't leave me alone.
please don't stop loving me.
that You will always be there shining Your light on my path.
Cause You are the only source for me
to live on
to move on
facing all difficulties with strength.
Thank You Lord.

Lord, i lay my worries before You
and ask for Your mighty intervention
to show me what's right
when i can only see what's wrong.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

10:29 PM
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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I miss those times when we talk with zero boundaries, the endless topics we have.
The way we walk side by side in the heavy downpour having heart-to-heart talks.
Those star-gazing, running around singapore to have a better view, a quieter place.
Those endless drinking session, the only time I can drink all I want without worrying.
The times when I cannot manage everything, you'd always be there to give me a hand.
Times when I tried to be strong, you'd take off my mask, giving me breaks.
When I cannot be strong anymore, you'd be there lending me a shoulder for my tears to fall.
Those short little tags on my blog, encouragements on my phone every single day.
The times when I messaged you 100 times & always get back 101 replies.
The times that you'd do silly things, making me laugh & laugh with me like mad crazy.
The times when you love seeing me staring into space, smiling at you & laughing like a kid.
Those hugs that you'd always be giving me secretly, encouraging me to go on.
The times you'd hold my hand, telling me you'd never let it go.
The times when you'd stare into my eyes, telling me that you really love me so much.

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

10:24 PM
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Saturday, February 27, 2010

merasa begitu lesu bahwa saya hanya merasa ingin menyerah.
merasa sangat sakit sehari-hari namun berpura-pura i am tidak.
):

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

10:10 PM
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Friday, February 26, 2010

any kind souls to teach me drumming ??
i need a drumming teacher urgently please ! >.<
i want to learn drumming !!

thanks mummie Chavonne for the meet up today
thanks for keeping me in Prayer.And i really felt the presence of God.
i will continue to seek for the Lord.
And get myself settled down to the place He wanted me to be in.
i shall keep you in prayer too.
Cause i am sure He has it all well planned for you ! (:
Jiayou mummie Chavonne ! C:

"for Your love is higher than the heavens
deeper than the seas
And all i want is You in my life
no one else can satisfy my soul
can make me feel this way
only You Lord, only You"

♥ [andrea] un-Defined m y s t e r y @

10:09 PM
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